art and words by Jennifer Parker

“The heart is like a garden. It can grow compassion or fear, resentment or love.
What seeds will you plant there?”
~Buddha
The ancient Taoists observed five forces of cyclical movement in nature, which translate as the Five Elements. We are currently residing in the wood element. Wood is “rising”—upward and outward energy—it is the time for personal and creative growth, inspiration, motivation, rebirth, planning and follow through.
Life is cyclical— it ebbs and flows. For me, both professionally and personally, the past three years have been a period of growth. In my early thirties, I was safe and comfortable—the common illusion of stability. I loved my job, my boyfriend, and I pursued my passion for travel. I was in the flow. But by 2009, my foundation started shaking. The Northern California satellite studio office that I managed closed and my seven-year personal relationship ended. The ebb was devastating!
Wood is rooting yourself to earth, standing tall and rising above your fears, and persevering through the uncertainty and heartache. In 2010, I was ready to rebuild my life. Wonderful job offers started to flow into my life. I felt ecstatic (and a little overwhelmed) with so many options and opportunities blossoming. Unfortunately, all of the job offers required relocating — I was happy in the Bay Area and wasn’t ready to make that commitment. And energetically, I felt a nudge (perhaps a shove or push) to reach higher. The universe whispered: “You’ve worked hard and you deserve it! You now have permission. Claim your personal creative power and create the life you desire!” So, I took my passions—travel stories, spirituality, my collection of artworks, photography—and mixed it with my 15 years of career experience in vintage design to create my own personal style.
Supporting myself and barely making ends meet, I chose the path of licensing and decided against using an agent. I wanted to learn everything firsthand. Determined and confident, I naively jumped into the business world thinking I knew enough about the stationery industry to make a go of it. I was securing contracts, but I wasn’t quite prepared for the obstacles that lay on my path.
I quickly realized that it is not an easy task to reinvent myself and become one of a kind in the market today. Even though I am able to use my career experience as leverage with manufacturers, most consumers are unaware of my extensive design background with the vintage style. An abundance of vintage paper companies have surfaced in the past decade that are using the same or similar antique art resources I have used for most of my career. Comparisons were evident and unavoidable.
So, how does an artist become recognized as unique and original when artists are influenced by the same design trends? As I stare into the crowded vintage ephemera fishbowl, I ask, ”Where do I go from here?” My reflection appears in the water. It seems to say, “Stand tall and grounded in your truth and passions. Create from your core, the place that feels true and flows naturally. Nothing else matters.” Like the Five Elements, we are kindred spirits on the same cycles – we are all connected and actually help each other succeed.
In order to grow, I needed to make mistakes, test my creative passions, and accept the comparisons. I am becoming stronger and wiser for choosing the true path. Learning how to stand tall in midst of the growing pains is one of the greatest blessings —the quickest pathway to inner freedom.
With care and dedication, my tree is beginning to bloom. As we move into the next cycle, the FIRE element — “forceful” energy expresses itself as joy, expansion, love, laughter, transformation and enthusiasm. The rays of sunlight are fostering my creative growth and I can see the results of what I’ve planted. I am ready to celebrate my progress and accomplishments thus far as I continue on this journey of personal and professional self discovery
{Stand Tall greeting card is available for purchase on my website}
What I’ve learned in the past few years about growth:
1) Be true to and believe in yourself. Compromising your heart’s natural creative expression because of how others may perceive you is like death to your spirit. Be bold, be nice, but don’t hold back. Be fierce in your truth.
2) Mistakes WILL happen! Mistakes are opportunities to LEARN and GROW. Most importantly, you must forgive yourself, then others, and then move on.
3) When the going gets challenging or confusing, just keep going, knowing you are always doing your very best.
4) Be open to re-evaluating your goals, making adjustments when things feel strange or you feel stuck. And feel free to let go of what is not working.
5) If something doesn’t feel right, back off and let it sit for a few days. The answer will eventually come.
6) The universe always provides what you need. Trust the process.
What are your experiences of creative/life ebb and flow? What are your experiences of creative/life ebb and flow?
Jennifer Parker is an innovative graphic and mixed media artist from Mill Valley, California. She has been art directing and designing gift products for over a decade. Her extensive knowledge of vintage imagery “ephemera”, coupled with a mastery of digital collage, have set Jennifer’s signature style apart in paper product design. Jennifer’s designs are inspired by her global excursions, spiritual interests, and her sensitivity to natural materials, layered textures and nuanced colors.
Many of my designs are inspired by personal stories. I weave a passion for travel, life experiences, and spirituality into my art. My resources include copyright-free images, natural or found objects, ephemera artwork that I’ve purchased while traveling abroad or at antique paper shows in the US. I also incorporate my own photographs of rustic walls, doors, and wood for background textures. When appropriate, I weave in an empowering message to complete the design tapestry. My deepest wish is that my artwork inspires women to envision, explore and express their unique gifts with the world. Please read what others have to say about my work.
I’m happy to announce that my Etsy Store officially opened last month. My art prints make meaningful gifts for yourself, a loving family member or a dear friend. There are many formats and prices to choose from. Acid-free Laser Art Prints, Premium Quality Giclee Prints, Art Boards, and Framed Prints. Stay tuned for handmade glass trays and plates. If you interested in purchasing greeting cards $4 including shipping, please visit my website.